Time

I've been really encouraged by some friends lately. I am very blessed to have some great little (and big) fountains of wisdom in my life. I don't think I realize how much God intervenes in my life in small ways. I'm always sitting around waiting for the big things to happen that I forget that every part of my existence is dependent on Him.

I also have been struggling a lot with the idea of time. I know that money doesn't and can't buy happiness. It is more of a crutch or bandaid than the solution for all life problems when it comes right down to it. But I do spend a lot of time wishing for just that, time. This is at least partially due to me being stuck on the idea that given enough time, I can do anything. Which is mostly true, but you can't discount the guy who makes all of that possible.

The biggest complaint that I have right now is that I'm realizing that I really don't have enough time to do everything. It isn't all feasible. Unless I turn out to be like Methuselah and live almost 1,000 years. And one of my bffs reminded me that if I imagine all of the great things that I could possibly do in life and have the greatest life that I could imagine and multiply it by a thousand, what God can do is still way bigger than that. My mind can't even comprehend that greatness! And the coolest thing is that all I have to do is follow his will and let him guide me. And see, that's the catch. Because no matter how hard I try it is still this enormous struggle for me to have faith and just believe, to trust that He has a plan far greater than my wildest dreams. I know in my head that I can't be self-sufficient and that I have to trust, but my heart is a whole other ball field.